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All in awe

I usually don't write about items like this, but for some reason I feel compelled this time.

So I was sitting at Starbucks reading a book and conducting a little people watching. Nothing new for me and actually something that I do fairly often. Seems like nothing new or anything odd and I was right. The only thing was someone walked into the door.

This someone was a girl. Yes I know a girl...big woopy right. The difference was this girl caught my attention like crazy and the fact is she did nothing nothing at all. She came in through the door wearing a grey pea coat. She was about 5 feet 5 inches and light colored skin tone. Her hair was this jet black color and came down to her neck. She tucked her hair behind her ears.

Her eyes were this light blue colored. For some reason the eyes were the most amazing eyes I have ever seen. I have no idea why but the just captured me. I felt like my mind went and gave up. I tried to read my book, but my mind wanted to do something else. It wanted to look at her.

She just sat in the chair right next to the door so quite, looking around the cafe. All I could do was wonder why she was just sitting there and why she had not gotten up to get line for coffee. I then began to think if she was there with anyone, but no one came up to her and she came in alone.

I just kept on wondering why I was so captivated and why this was happening. I wanted to say something to her, but my mind was going blank and I had no idea what to do. Then another girl came up and sat at the table directly next to me. That same girl had her order come and she went to get it. She then walked out the door. I then saw the pea coat girl get up from her seat talk to that girl and then they both went outside.

I then put my book down, even though I really was not reading at that time, and wondered what I should have done. I got slightly mad at myself because I didn't do anything. Then I thought was I just supposed to sit there and admire her or what. I guess I well not know, but I do know one thing I am not going to forget her anytime soon, and for some reason I don't know why.

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