October has come and pasted. If you have been reading my blogs I have been going through a rough past couple months, October being the utmost difficult. I have had to give away several things, I have had to lose things through force, and I have had to lay down and get run over. When this was all happening I thinking "what have I done to deserve this." The fact is I am not the most innocent person, and my ill moral options may have caught me which I don't thing is the fact here, but rather I think this list of events is to teach me my errors and produce the next level of myself. I am becoming more understood that I need to learn who I am, I need to learn how to become this way, I need to trust myself and be confident. This is not clear as of right now, but I know that is part of the lesson I must find it myself. This world we live in one of the most complex and amazing things ever. It is a constant change no matter how our eyes look at it. The fact is things have to chang