One Day to Another

Being patience is something that seems like an almost lost idea in the world at this time. I remember when I was a child my mom and/or dad would tell me I needed to be patience about stuff and eventually it would come with hard work. I took that to heart very often, but at times I would let the thought disappear into the wind wanting stuff to happen right away. Hit me the other day that I have been drifting further the way of being a patience person awaiting and working hard to get to those goals and getting upset because things were not happening right away. I think this came to light when I was wondering why people in movies and around me in personal life and at work are not patience. At first I blamed technology solo, but I think that's just part of the issues and will be talked about later. After I began to develop that theory, I tested it against myself. What I had found was yes, in fact I did have less patience because of technology but that was just slightly the rea

It seems like an on going thing that I am at a bar thinking about the what ifs. Why do I pounder upon these thoughts so often? And why always at a bar? I guess the reason at a bar is well there is alcohol there and there is people watching. If you combine the two you have something that I am extremely good at doing. So natural when I do those things I start thinking about other people's what ifs. Why are in this place? Is it the same reason I am here or is their life in a downward spiral of doom that the only thing to make it better is some liquor in their system. I think the later is probably an over step but still I have a feeling it does happen at times. Anyways so this night at the bar I have noticed a lot of drunk individuals some of which didn't even recognize that the are at the point of blasted, yet believe they are as normal as possible. Is that how people feel in real. In their own minds they feel that they are just like everyone else, yet in reality they are not

For the past couple of days I have actually found a point of quite and peace. Something that has been hiding from me for some time now. This is truly put me at ease and a relaxing feeling.  I guess the fact is stuff seems to be a place were I am finally looking past the trivial present items and see the large picture with the light at the end. It is something that I think a lot of people need to look for more often. Yet, I know that is really a difficult thing to do. The fact is a moment of peace is worth a couple of struggles. I'll push through those struggles as much as I can instead of dreading when that day would come. To be honest the simple fact that this moment came out of no where made it that much better. The fact is today, through all the calls and events going on, I was thinking of many things to write on here. The fact is I forgot them except this one thought. To be honest I am happy where I am and I know one thing about me. I well not just stand at where I am at

     So i decided to go for a walk today on my day off, knowing that I needed to get back in to the root of who I am. This is something that I have been failing to do for sometime now and it has hit me that I think that is the cause to some of my issues of late. I really, really need to figure myself out. The though part of this is starting at the very beginning again. So this walk was going to let me figure out my plan of attack. Usually how I start this process is much like writing for me, find something or think something and go nuts... Right now I feel stuck again repeating the process of what am I doing. The only thing that came to mind immediately was the fountain on the east side of the road. You can hear the roar of the captured water streaming down the wall feeling freedom for such a brief moment, only to hit the rough ending conclusion of pool of calm tranquilly water. That pool of water slowly circling around the grey walls with nothing to look forward other then to be e

So I have recently upgraded my mobile computing device. I once had a very nice, fairly good spec laptop that was full of power. I have now I guess downgraded to a "tablet". The thing is I love this little power house. Sure it is not as strong as the old laptop, but with 15 hours of time with out a corded charge it pushes to awe for me. I love the fact that I can go anywhere in my house and start typing away. Yes, I mean typing full size keyboard that comes off instantly. I do not game as much as I use to but instead type, surf and read news and other items which again makes this 2 pound wonder if nicer. Only some small issues here and there but all new devices have that. Now that is a sales pitch right there... Anyways, because of this little beast I have been wanting to write again and I can just pick a nice place to sit and the words flow on the go. There is something so refreshing that I can just walk around and then start typing. Yes, I could have done that with t

So I have failed to update or do any writing this year. I am not sure what has been the cause of this other then some small changes. A very poor excuse in my book, so maybe I should fix this issue. Well as far as update, not much has really happened. Work has been work and has been somewhat crazy. Personal life, well has been pretty good and I really cannot complain. Now outside of that, not much at all, no revolutionary ideas, thoughts, or even writing ides. Hopefully I start getting some inspiration and start piecing some positive and meaningful words together. Outside of that, I have been working extremely hard on the house and getting the backyard done. Is there relevance to these sudden topi? Yes, yes there is. The point of this is I have always wanted a garden and backyard that I could spend time in and relax. Seems to be a nice and good place to inspire and grow those words that I have been so inept in finding here lately. Plus, just having the back yard set up is going to b