I am here typing at 6 o'clock in the morning, a little unsure why I am. What I do know is that I haven't been able to fall asleep since 5. So many items have been flying through me head the last several days and I believe that those items are to be blamed for the insomnia. These items have been mainly about my past, the errors I have made and how often I have brought myself just to knock myself down. I am noticing that must of my errors that I have made are that of my own. My very worse critic has been myself. My ultimate cause for destruction has been done by me. I have not been able to give myself a good appraisal and devalued myself so much that in my mind I have not been worth much. This inappropriate value has caused myself so many unneeded issues, problems and self inflected wounds. To be honest I am not sure why this has happened, nor unsure of what has made me this way. The one thing that I have noticed is that people give me a higher value then that I have given mysel