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Avenue of Unknown

For the last 13 weeks I have been engaged in the training of my career. This time period has been by far some of the most challenging days just simply for the fact that I have had to push myself to keep going and there has only been me to push. I really have never given it a thought on how hard some challenges can be with out someone to come to, to talk to or simply someone to see after a hard day of work / training. I never had an idea of how much my family actually played a role in my past successes.

Back then when I came home I could always count on seeing my dad or talking to my mom and my problems would magically disappear. Now when I come home I have to find some way cheer myself up or I have to simply move on even though that is not the optimal method. The other thing I have noticed is that coming home doesn't mean just coming home to people but something more in depth.

What I mean by "more in depth" is something with more meaning. Like I said early coming home to my parents house lifted me up almost automatically and I think the reason is that my parents want to spend to time to make sure I am okay, they look for that. When I come home to my house, my roommate who really good friends are not on that stretch. I don't really think friends should be at that level. What has this made me see is that relationships are a key element in self improvement. I really think I would be doing even better then I am now if I knew there was that person there to make sure I am okay and vice versa. The fact that I am saying this should be extremely valid proof (simply for the fact I usually say no way to another failed attempt to a relationship or possible family).

Well for now I'll continue to be single, but I think once I am on the streets enjoying my career, I will start my next training on being good at relationships that way two people can become better because we both have support. And for the time being my calls to my parents and my visits on the weekend should keep me going. As one of the deputy/instructors said, "one day at a time".

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