Wow so I have written anything on here for a long time, and a long time meaning a month. So what has happened, well lets see school has gone crazy, I got a semi promotion, and a gentle reminder of why being single is the best thing to do. So lets hit on these three issues. First of all school. School has become very crazy due to papers and classes. I filled out my graduation application and I felt so good when I was done like I am almost done with something that I tried so hard to finish. This goal has had so so so many obstacles that have almost made me fall over. The funny thing is the third topic keeps adding obstacles to my first topic which in turn really drives me crazy. I think I need to stop certain things such as going to parties and staying up to hours to go against topic 3. I need to accomplish school, that's the only thing that may keep me going, something I need. The second thing is the promotion at work, which really did not feel like anything special but it does look good on a resume, a resume which I have to start making and hopefully show some good that I could do. The third thing is that I am truly finding out that all I fall into is lust and not love. Love is something I strive for,but I don't think I will find now. As for lust I am becoming very very tired of it. It doesn't feel good anymore but instead feels like a never ending circle of hope that I know is non existent. All that comes from it is pain, frustration, jealousy, aggravation, hopelessness, and meaningless for the time spent. Will I guess I should be thankful that I have realized this instead falling victim to the false love that I create in my head which in end hurts me even more. I find it fairly ironic that I started this blog to cope with the love I lost, or the fake love I lost but instead I am finding the many blindfolds that are minds create in order to make ourselves feel better or move further. Instead I have found it is better to see life in full view, with open eyes. It may be painful but being hurt by a fake reality is even worse.
I am sure the statement "patience is a virtue" has been heard by everyone, and told to everyone that it must be practiced. I have always though that I was really good at practicing patience, the only problem I am slowly finding out I am not very good at this practice. I guess that I need to look into the practice even more, and I need to learn it quick (Haha not patience in learning patience, I need to learn it now... Irony, I think so). Through understanding that I need to learn the virtue know as patience, I have also learned, learning a virtue is actual really difficult. This reminds me of my senior project that I had to write for my BS in which which moral theory is best, yet the paper in the end is the same as the start. It is a constant loop and when you truly gain that virtue you move up into another circle and cycle around forever until you are ready to jump to the next section. So with that said, I guess I am going to go through this learning process while I really n
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