One Day to Another

Movie: The last word Tonight I was watching a movie called the "The Last Word". Right from the start I saw the morbid plot, but for some reason I see the in depth part that the plot eludes. The main character in the movie is a writer but not the conventional writer but one who writes the suicide notes for others who are going to kill themselves. I think the majority of people would see this person as soulless, which is actually stated in the movie, but I saw it as something very different. I saw the person who has had to go through and listen to those stories of those people who kill themselves. I can't say I know exactly what a person is thinking when they see death as the only way out, or if the reasons why they are killing themselves are a good reason. The only thing that I am pretty sure about is the people around suffer a great amount of pain, that those who have left can not do anything to ease.. The movie displays this so well when the main man...

Here lately my posts have been about continuing and feeling down because of the challenges I am going through right now. Most of these challenges can be attributed to my own doing. At times it feels like I am falling to the ground its sometimes very hard to get up from the ground. The only thing I should feel that way. I should have the confidence to push myself up and move forward again knowing that it is a task that should be easy to me. This came into light even more as I listed to NPR program called "Snap Judgement". The program has several people telling their poems and short stories and one of those short stories was simply inspirational and just shows that some people who may appear to be weak are some of the strongest people around and a lot of us can learn from them. The short story is called "Falling" and I linked the reading from snap judgement here. This person has been able to get over so many obstacles that so many of us may have no...

For the last 13 weeks I have been engaged in the training of my career. This time period has been by far some of the most challenging days just simply for the fact that I have had to push myself to keep going and there has only been me to push. I really have never given it a thought on how hard some challenges can be with out someone to come to, to talk to or simply someone to see after a hard day of work / training. I never had an idea of how much my family actually played a role in my past successes. Back then when I came home I could always count on seeing my dad or talking to my mom and my problems would magically disappear. Now when I come home I have to find some way cheer myself up or I have to simply move on even though that is not the optimal method. The other thing I have noticed is that coming home doesn't mean just coming home to people but something more in depth. What I mean by "more in depth" is something with more meaning. Like I said early c...

So I was watching How I Met Your Mother today and there is one episode that they talk about 3 years from now. The concept was actually pretty interesting and saw myself thinking about 3 years ago. The first thing I could think about was that I was finishing my second to last semester of college. That was the only thing that I could instantly think about 3 years ago. As far as what I believed would happen 3 years from there, I would think I would believe that I would have a girlfriend and in a long time relationship and hopefully starting my career. Well here I am at 3 years and I am not in a relationship at all, I did graduate from college and I have a house. The thing that I did hope for is my career and I am going through those steps. This challenge has been very hard and I am only 5 weeks in and have 3/4 to go but I know I can do it. As for relationships I have been on and off so many time about relationship I am starting to think that I could be partially by polar. I guess if...

Another year has left and a new year is not here. For the most part the year 2012 was one of the hardest years of my life, and it pretty much started on the get go. The first several months after that day was trying to get in a norm, and I fairly certain that's how my family felt too, but it was not the easiest. I jumped into a relationship knowing what I was doing at the time was not the best and figured I try to make myself happy. That ended up being the wrong choice and I was a little bit more miserable of how that turned out. After that I stopped thinking about relationships and began to progress through "I don't care anymore" phase. I started saving up money and limit already limited party life because I wanted to move out and grow up a little more. I didn't have a plan or idea when that would happen, but knew that is what I wanted. In August my family would go through yet another hard time, but this time I would lose someone instead of a close almost. Wh...

I have recently acquired a new book about the philosophy behind the TV show "Big Bang Theory" and I must say I have learned a lot more about philosophy then have from 3 classes in college regarding the same items. I am sure its because it is about something I really enjoy watching in the first place and for the fact the writer words are a lot like that in the show. Still the fact is that actual educational part is quite good and that I have been able to extract that info to real life items. One of my favorite items has to be about the "roommate agreement" that Sheldon has Leonard follow by and how it is like that of Hobbes, one of my favorite philosophers, natural law. It is funny, yet very practical that one engages in a social contract of agreements when living with another. After what I have gone with and living with someone I think I would have followed something of this sort. (Even though the person I was living with was someone of a romantic es...

For years now I have looked outside this window in my room. I have laid my eyes on the Santa Rita Mountains and have seen a different image every time I opened my curtains. My eyes have seen this timeless face change into a unique image every second of everyday for the past seven years. Through that time I have seen those mountains a far and at close. Through that time I have seen changes upon those rock formations. The four seasons bring four changes as predicated earlier. Spring season brings the new sprouts, new leaves, new young in the animals and even what seems to be new fresh start to a year. Summer brings the warmth, brings season to those of young who just arrived, and the rains of the monsoon come to prepare those for later. As those rains dissipate and the temperature begins to cool, the mountains change again. The leaves of youth fade color and start to show their age. Yellow, gold, brown and red cover the canopies and ground like a brilliant picture. The now...