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Last year, was probably the hardest year of my life. I almost lost my dad at the start but luckily he his still around and probably doing better then ever. Seven months later 17 days before my birthday one of the greatest men I know passed away. My Ope meant so much to me and inspired me to be good to all people because that is how he was. When he passed away I had no idea what to do and felt like everything was going down hill. I then remembered that Ope would have not wanted that, he would of wanted me and my family to move on a get to our highest level. Shortly there after I pushed myself to accomplish goals that I had been writing down.

Well August 1st has come and gone and all I could think was how could a year have gone by already and how I still miss him. I really wish I could have had him there when I graduated from academy or if I had kids that they could meet such a great man. I know he is still around in spirit and sometimes I think he is right there with my other family members keeping an eye on me and my family

In the last year I have also seen that my family and friends are the reason that I have been successful so much. It sad that having a great man leave me life to recognize all the good around but some people never know of this. My Dad and Mom push me so hard and but give me so much strength in order to accomplish the task in front of me.  My brothers and my sister all give me encouragement to do my best. And my friends, without them I would have not made it through last year the way I did.

Here lately my friends are succeeding in life and going down new paths. Some of them are in relationships and starting families, others are leaving home to accomplish their carriers. My friend Paul and boyfriend to one of my best friends is going into Navy Basic tomorrow. I am so proud of him but also know in a few month Bailey and Paul are going to leave. My friend Angel who I only became friends last year is leaving to Dallas to do a job he had been dreaming for years. My two best friends, one married and with a kid and the other dating a great girl who is helping him raise his three kids, are so busy with there lives and succeeding at creating a happy healthy family. I made many of these friends after a really dark time and they helped me through it. They were there through the roughest year of my life and helped me become even stronger. Now, I see them growing and slowly disappearing from my life, but not in a bad way at all. I am so proud of them all and hope that one day we will be all able to sit around a table and remember the good ol' years.

The point to this entry is no matter how hard times get, I have been so lucky to have so many people around me helping me succeed. Sometimes those people have to leave but, really they are always there.

In end to tonight's post. Good luck Paul, go kick some butt.

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