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Coffee thoughts

Ahhh, I do enjoy the day where I get to go to my local Starbucks and get my tasty coffee beverage. Once I have acquired said beverage I read a book and listen to my music as a watch people going in and out of the coffee franchise.

Usually want transpires during these relaxing time period is thoughts. Thoughts of the book I am reading thoughts of recent events, thoughts of future events and random thoughts. So a lot of thoughts as one can tell.

One thought was about what is going to happen tomorrow. I make another huge step in doing what I want to do. Help people, go out and get bad guys and up most protect. It is one thing I have seen myself do on so many occasions and one thing that I think I will always see myself do. While I was thinking that I was currently listening to the Last Samurai sound track and thinking about how I am the modern day version of them. As a kid, and now, I saw a Samurai as one of the greatest things. They pushed themselves everyday and worked extremely hard on everything they did to achieve the best skill they could. I spent several weeks learning new skills and working on self discipline and now I am no longer in the Academy setting and see that I am not doing the most I could to be that top notch warrior that I have to be. It is something that I must strive to better because my job now begs of it. As myself and my fellow classmates were told on several times, "it is a life style" and "we are not allowed to be lazy and unfit now." Statements that should ring true with me. So I think its time that I began to focus on those items like the Samurai did. I must become an even better warrior so that I can help those I vowed, I actually took a vow... now that is pretty cool, and those who have taken the same vow.

After I was done with that thought I found a random thought in my mind. With all the computer technology that we have is the actual handwritten word a disappearing item? If it is I am truly sadden by this fact. I can type and most often prefer to type, but I do like to write. There is something soothing to use a pen and feel the rough transition as one moves the pen in a certain way to convey the message in one's head and transcribed to paper. In fact a lot of writings don't make it into this BLOG because they are hand written into a leather bond book. The reason for this is that some writings written in hand have a greater meaning to me then being typed. It helps me work through situations. In fact I like to take that leather book with me on my solo hikes and write as I hear nature all around me. This is something I have not done in a while, but I think it may be time that I do that soon.

Well, I believe that this concludes this entry. Until the next.

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