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Code Red for Stress Levels

SO I had a nervous break down and anxiety attack last night during a party, I was able to only have the attack in my mind but it tore me to shreds and caused me to just disappear from the party. I woke up this mourning with a feeling of failure, like everything I am doing right now is failed attempt. I finally got that thought out of my mind but a new feeling flooded in which was stress that I could not allow the previous feeling to become to true. I really can't describe the feeling besides a quote in Lord of the Rings were Bilbo Baggins says "I feel like butter being stretched across a piece of bread that is to big." This feeling is even effecting me in a physical way in which my body is sore and I am tired even though I slept enough. My mind is in so many places at once that I become exhausted just by seating around due the fact I cant think of 1 thing not even 2 things but so many things that I just feel like I am going crazy. Something is in need of desperate change if I am to succeed at my goals that I set in front of me but I am not sure how to fix this, and have no idea were to start. As I sit here I feel that feeling that I had yesterday, there is so much expectation that people have in you and when you know it can hurt you so much. Last night it was my friends telling me to go and talk to girls and have fun so I did that with other things on my mind that I don't want to divulge here right now. This mix of items on my mind knocked one domino over and it hasn't stopped its destruction yet.

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