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The coffee shop, a place of great thought.

So, I am at the coffee shop again for my less distraction then home studying time. Also it could be an excuse to get good coffee. Anyways off the philosophical part of my regular writings.

Today, I meet up with one of my friends who has helped me through some large problems. We are talking about our friends and our ex's and what we have done. The conversation came up that I need to get away from the girls I have been going after. These girls are just not the ones I should go for. The fact is, he is right. He continued with the conversation stating I need to find a girl who is in college or something close to me stop going after the girls who are going "no where." The more and more I think about that through out the day the more I agree. I think one of the biggest parts to this equation is the "what if's" in life. Such as what if I am with a girl and the what if occurs that a child gets involved in the situation. Knowing that most of my relationship problems that occur right now end in a cluster of miss manged time, error, anger, and bunch of other bad items. How could I bring a child in to a world were his or her parents started off on a rocky base that is more than 98% sure that it will fall apart. The amazing thing, I didn't think of this ever until a couple walked into the coffee place with their two young daughters. These two people have built a foundation that is strong simply because they have similar beliefs and similar values that they had to come to a consensus on.

I guess out of all this I have also learned that worrying that I might not find a girl to car for or love for is true, for now. I believe that I am doing this for a reason, I need to get my priorities straight right now and make sure I concentrate on my goals as of right now. I know that when I am done with school I can continue the quest to find the girl, but it will only be for the right girl, no longer these girls that are just a bent bar in a piece to an even more flimsy foundation. I need to find the girl who is the straight supportive bar to a strong foundation.

Side note

~Coffee shops are an amazing place to ones mind to let lose, study, and figure things out for one.


"In these times you have to be an optimist to open your eyes when you awake in the morning."
~Carl Sandburg

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