One Day to Another

The year 2011. Began with so much hope, struck by tragedy in the early part and became quite through the remainder. As stated in the first part 2011 was to be a year full of promise. A year in which I thought a large amount of change would occur in my life, on a good note. Several months later I would find that not to be entirely true. I had just graduated from college a few days before the start of this year and was full of hope and eager to move forward. I had great friends to help through some of the challenges that I know I would endure. I was ready for this year probably more than any other year before, oh how wrong I was, and how this would be shown with eight days in the year and several times later. January 8th, the first test in my faith of the year. Not many people through out the world well remember the 8th of January, 2011, but I can almost guarantee that the people of Tucson well remember it. Several people, some of which my family knew, were shot brutally shot by a perso...

For the past several months I have been going through a circle that has given me fun and pleasure but also gives the same amount in pain. In other word 50 pleasure and happiness, 50 pain. So I decided, probably a billion times now, that I need to remove my self from this vicious equation. The only problem is that I think I am out of it, and then I am right back in it. How do I stop myself from this, the only way I know. Make myself so busy that it just happens. So with that said I am starting operation busy in which I am going to reflect on all the free time I have allocate it so I am mainly buys except when I am playing games. (Everyone should know playing games is a good way to remove oneself from the world) The other "free time" is going into preparation for the future. In other other words, studying, working out, hiking, reading, and utmost self education. Also I believe one of the few time I felt really good about things was when I was always writing and reflecting on t...

October has come and pasted. If you have been reading my blogs I have been going through a rough past couple months, October being the utmost difficult. I have had to give away several things, I have had to lose things through force, and I have had to lay down and get run over. When this was all happening I thinking "what have I done to deserve this." The fact is I am not the most innocent person, and my ill moral options may have caught me which I don't thing is the fact here, but rather I think this list of events is to teach me my errors and produce the next level of myself. I am becoming more understood that I need to learn who I am, I need to learn how to become this way, I need to trust myself and be confident. This is not clear as of right now, but I know that is part of the lesson I must find it myself. This world we live in one of the most complex and amazing things ever. It is a constant change no matter how our eyes look at it. The fact is things have to chang...

I am sure the statement "patience is a virtue" has been heard by everyone, and told to everyone that it must be practiced. I have always though that I was really good at practicing patience, the only problem I am slowly finding out I am not very good at this practice. I guess that I need to look into the practice even more, and I need to learn it quick (Haha not patience in learning patience, I need to learn it now... Irony, I think so). Through understanding that I need to learn the virtue know as patience, I have also learned, learning a virtue is actual really difficult. This reminds me of my senior project that I had to write for my BS in which which moral theory is best, yet the paper in the end is the same as the start. It is a constant loop and when you truly gain that virtue you move up into another circle and cycle around forever until you are ready to jump to the next section. So with that said, I guess I am going to go through this learning process while I really n...

Today, 10 years ago was a very sad day and a day that millions of people will never forget. Many people say its day that we as people affected by it will never forget what we were doing when the events occurred. I hold this true and do remember what occurred 10 years ago. Many people saw fear and pain from the days after that, but hope slowly started to come to peoples minds. Hope is something that is not an item, but can changes and help people defeat and move forward. Hope keeps people going, and inspires them to try for the most. People were in fear, but saw hope that would help them to push through the hard times and find the silver lining. What I took from this is that if people can get through, remember such a time, and still live a life full of hope and knowing that bad things can happen but we all must forward. I have learned that even in the rough I must try my hardest to move forward. What I have learned the must was that I have to hope best and know that not everything works...

Today started off pretty good and took off from there. I woke up ready to go and felt good but still a little sad about things but that changed quite fast. I woke up ate breakfast, and got ready for my haircut (haircuts make me feel good for some reason). While I was waiting there I got an amazing text from someone I wanted to hear from. I got an immediate smile and felt so good. I continued the texting until I had to stop because of another important call. A call that may change my life for the best and made tomorrow a huge and big deal. I have to say The first half today was the most amazing thing ever. Work was the regular but because of the text earlier, work was easy for me since my mind was locked on that person with the slight thought of the big events coming very very soon. Tell tomorrow.

As the title states I am starting the rinsing process on what I have gone through. Its time clean off the harsh dirt that has gathered on me and start look towards the cleaner picture. I am still dwelling and hurting, but I think I am doing better then I was. I am trying to stand up straight and keep walking with at fault, but right now a couple steps do hurt and some do not at all. I just got to keep my mind thinking other things, and hopefully I'll start feeling better. One thing I decided to keep my mind off of things is by putting one thing on it. This items is a goal that I am going to try so hard to accomplish. Right now I don't have anything else going for me so I really need to work hard on this. Well I am done for the night and shall come back tomorrow night.