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Trying to get away just to come around

For the past several months I have been going through a circle that has given me fun and pleasure but also gives the same amount in pain. In other word 50 pleasure and happiness, 50 pain. So I decided, probably a billion times now, that I need to remove my self from this vicious equation. The only problem is that I think I am out of it, and then I am right back in it. How do I stop myself from this, the only way I know. Make myself so busy that it just happens. So with that said I am starting operation busy in which I am going to reflect on all the free time I have allocate it so I am mainly buys except when I am playing games. (Everyone should know playing games is a good way to remove oneself from the world) The other "free time" is going into preparation for the future. In other other words, studying, working out, hiking, reading, and utmost self education. Also I believe one of the few time I felt really good about things was when I was always writing and reflecting on things. I really need to get back to that.

So with that said watch out coffee shops, Justin is coming back. Non-Party bars you watch out too, I need good tasting beer to keep me on the path. To all my friends who like to party, sorry I am going to disappear as much as I did in school. Lets see how long this lasts ><

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