One Day to Another

What is time? How do we measure it? How do we know when a set of time is completed and another begins? These are the questions that came to my mind today. According to Albert Einstein, time is not at all a constant, but rather conforms to several factors. The thing is, to most of us (in my opinion) time is constant. We see time going by second after second, fulfilling sixty of those seconds to complete a minute and so on. Yet people see time going slower, such as when a person is in detention and one hour appears to have taken the time that three or fours hours should have taken. Yes, none of this correlates to the theory of relativity, but it does correlate to the way people view time and how the mind views time. The reason why this all came about is that time is something that I, and many others may, follow. For example: It has been almost six years such a graduated college, almost four years being at my current place of work, two years since my last real relationship, 123 days since...

Exploration, I don't think many people truly understand this word and how much exploration plays a role in every life. Exploration can mean finding a new place to live, or exploration of oneself. To me exploration of finding oneself and exploring new lands, new places, new people are all one thing. Each item change one another, they are all dynamically combined with each other. I have been watching so many movies about traveling and exploration, and every time I see it a long for that life, but know it won't happen for a while. For the time being though I can have other travels, travel more local but with just as much exploration as a trip a very distant land. The point is, if I am willing to move, to see new places and expose my self to these places then I am exploring myself. Something that I believe I have been evading in a stupid measure to become something I am not. The funny thing is this lesson has been placed right in front of me every time I watch these travel movies. ...

Over the past 3 years I have been obsessed with travel movies, travel books, but most of all imagining the places I can go. I don't believe I have ever been in such a wanting of something then the ability to get up and travel the world, see new things, enter a world of others. I think the main reason for this is that I believe it will help me find my self. Learn from others to lighten the dark corners of my life. Understand the true human spirit and why we act and do what we do. It was around three years ago when I got to see Europe and explore two counties full of culture and new ways to light up my life. The sad thing it took almost three years to realize it because my eyes were covered by a blanket known as a fake relationship. I luckily didn't forget the sights, the food, and the people that I got to interact with. I don't believe I will ever forget those item now because it means so much. I am so very thankful that I was given that opportunity to see Germany and Italy....

One of my new years resolutions is to find myself. I am a person in reality, whatever I think reality is, but I want to find the true parts of me instead of what the culture around me wants me to be. I guess that can be a little confusing so what I want to find out is the true me, not the me that is defined by others. So in order to do this I have begun thinking about things I like to do. Once this list is created I want to try everything on that list and see what happens. Actually enjoy everyday instead of dreading a day. The past five years have been a struggle of me and conforming to others. I believe its time to let me win this time. I believe it is time to "do me". I have earned it in my opinion. I have graduated from a university, I have completed many years of work, I have survived hardship of the emotional types. It is time for me to let all of this stress go and it is time to move forward and relax. I think the next couple of weeks are going to be simply put amazing.

01/09/2011 is a date that shall be remembered in this desert community forever. A day that felt normal to many, but changed the mind set of millions. 01/09/2011 challenged America to find the wrong that has been covered by other items. It had revealed that this senseless act of pain is an attack on all not just the left, right or any side but all of us. 01/09/2011 has taken our past, future and present by storm and distorted the matrix and allows us to see how far apart we are when we should be close. 01/09/2011 is a tragedy like that of other tragedies in the past. A tragedy that we all came together for a brief moment to build an environment that helps us thrive and become a coping country. The only problem is that 01/09/2011 tragedy should not follow the others, but become an event that helps the desert community, state, country, and world to understand the importance to become a thriving humanity that understands each person and comes together. 01/09/2011 shall be the date that era...

I have never been this close to attaining a goal of this magnitude. A goal that is a life time goal. A goal that is so big to me that as of today I am a whole week away from accomplishing. So many people have been asking how does it feel are you excited. The truth is I am scared as hell. I am scared of messing up and I just missed the goal. I am scared of my life changing completely because of the change that can come in accomplishing this goal. I am scared of being disappointed like have be soon many time before. Yet with all this fear I know it must be done. This is where my biggest fear resides. I have to look all these fears stair them in the eye and leap into a vast unknown. A blackness of which my hopes are not even seen. A place where my thoughts are lost and I struggle to hang on to them. This change is something I thought I would never be afraid, but because of the past I am still apprehensive to the idea. I am still apprehensive because what if the actions takes everything aw...

So, I am at the coffee shop again for my less distraction then home studying time. Also it could be an excuse to get good coffee. Anyways off the philosophical part of my regular writings. Today, I meet up with one of my friends who has helped me through some large problems. We are talking about our friends and our ex's and what we have done. The conversation came up that I need to get away from the girls I have been going after. These girls are just not the ones I should go for. The fact is, he is right. He continued with the conversation stating I need to find a girl who is in college or something close to me stop going after the girls who are going "no where." The more and more I think about that through out the day the more I agree. I think one of the biggest parts to this equation is the "what if's" in life. Such as what if I am with a girl and the what if occurs that a child gets involved in the situation. Knowing that most of my relationship problems...