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Creating a guide to finding oneself

One of my new years resolutions is to find myself. I am a person in reality, whatever I think reality is, but I want to find the true parts of me instead of what the culture around me wants me to be. I guess that can be a little confusing so what I want to find out is the true me, not the me that is defined by others. So in order to do this I have begun thinking about things I like to do. Once this list is created I want to try everything on that list and see what happens. Actually enjoy everyday instead of dreading a day. The past five years have been a struggle of me and conforming to others. I believe its time to let me win this time. I believe it is time to "do me". I have earned it in my opinion. I have graduated from a university, I have completed many years of work, I have survived hardship of the emotional types. It is time for me to let all of this stress go and it is time to move forward and relax. I think the next couple of weeks are going to be simply put amazing.

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