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Orgin II

So, you fellow readers, if you actually read recent posts I have had heart ache. Yes that heart ache is probably considered nothing but to me it was something... anyways I regress. I have been trying to figure out what is wrong and what causes me to blow up into a firing ball of boooo. (As write this I am trying to make this a little funnier then how I felt the past several weeks).

So my new mission now in which I do accept is to fix my short falls. I need to look at my past and see why certain relationships go wrong. I also know I need to fix certain aspects of me, mainly confidence. I am very confident in certain things such as work, knowledge and other items but with girls I fail harder then rock does at being a diamond.

I don't think to much as wrong with me, but I do recognize that I go after certain things when I know the future result. That might be because I don't push my self for that next level, that level I deserve.  I also have to understand that the past is just that. Even though I have fear from the past I need to be *confident* and understand that there are risk to several things but I do need to learn from the past.

The other thing is I need to really discover me and stop worrying about my worth to the opposite sex. The other thing is I do need to understand there are other things that I have messed up on such as how I have screwed other over. I need to fix that, I can't expect to not get screwed by others when I am doing the same...

Anyways as for the name I see it as a re lunch in comic books. In this case Wolverine Origins II which is one of my favorites so yeah.

Ok I am done for the day err or night.

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