So I am on week 4 or 5 I cannot really tell do to the fact I think time has been going warp speed there for making small increments of time such as weeks unimportant. The first few glimpses of school went very will until it hay wire and papers were do in every class a long with a large amount of writing. The last couple of days (okay fine so days and week as time increments are important) have placed my self in state of stress and nervousness. A feeling that I would think that I am use to, but not at all due to the fact I think I have been in it before... WRONG. This feeling is even worse because so much is standing on getting the papers done, writing good discussions, reading all the papers. If I do good these things well get my ultimate goal of graduating. So the stress is even worse and in fact it has become painful to keep up with the stress levels. Other problem is that my stress relief of working out cannot be done anymore so I do not have the relief anymore. The one good thing from this mess is that I am learning items that work for other classes that allowing me to do the work for two items, and or writing better because my communication class is going over it. Anyways, I guess its back to the grind. Wish me luck.
In yesterdays post I talked about the amount of stress that I am placing myself in and stretching myself so thin that I am actual feeling a real effect of it. I began to look at everything that I am doing and the hell that I am placing myself into which a very bad situation, one that could place my whole future in a hell. I am seeing that because I am trying to do so many things that I am actually being very shellfish and not doing the right thing. I have so much that is riding on me and yes I need to have fun, but I also need to remember there are other things that should be holding precedence over. Its time to get thing straight and see there is a definitive path in which I must follow to make sure my future at hand, the way it may happen won't be changed because of poor choices on my part. Its time to close one window, and begin to look out another to see a new view, picture, hope for the future.
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