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Well I had to have an extremely misleading title, but in all essence what does happen when you work in the middle of no year for twelve hours? You, A) work a lot and B) well you tend to think a lot because there is nothing to do. In fact I would probably have had this written this blog if I had some type on internet connection. but yet again I was in the middle of no where guarding a pipe line.

Anyways on to the actual wordage, is that an actual word? I regress. So last night I kinda figured out where I am in life, a self proclaimed workaholic that is very lazy outside of work, is probably where I need to be minus the lazy part. Seriously I really need to remove the lazy part like its cancer. In fact as I write this I am sitting in my ice chest of a room watching "Californication." So let us see where I am not to lazy beside the periods of work. Ohhh, I am writing, something that I should do more often. I am creatively thinking of how I can make my house look better. Yes I am not working on it but I am actively thinking about it so there.

Now on to the other part and this part would not have been on the draft written last night. Thank you to the for mentioned show. I have to say that my life is kinda in spiral of that the main character. Notice I did not say downward spiral. I won't get into the details and may I say his extra curricular activities are much more frequent then mine. And I mean emphasis on more. The fact is I really just need to continue on what I am doing, achieve at getting better in the areas I need to. IE stop being so lazy on the writing, house maintenance and overall succeeding a little better and then the other stuff well come... hopefully, right, or is that just a fantasy that I have created.

"Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything."

~ George Bernard Shaw

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