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self-ungratification

This past week was one of the worst weeks that I have had. Really don't want to get into why, but just really bad. To make matters worst I, yet again, allowed myself to be defeated by my worst enemy, myself.  I really do not know where I have learned to push myself down, or the reason of why this happens, but it is completely an item of destruction. Something that will take me out of any light or goal that I am trying to succeed at.

Due to this self realization I have decided to call this self destruction as self-ungratification. The reason for this is that when people accomplish a goal, or get good at something they accomplish a degree of self-gratification. In this case it is the opposite, one should feel ungrantified and unaccomplished so self-ungratification. I actually feel pretty gratified about thinking about the word self-ungratification. I am almost more then certain this word has been discovered but as far as this writing is concerned it is all mine.

Anyways, I guess I got to make sure that I remove this self-ungratification that I have obtained and remove them because that is all I got and all I got is me so I got to be accomplished some how.

Well hopefully on to a another day and another accomplishment.

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