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Bar pounders

It seems like an on going thing that I am at a bar thinking about the what ifs. Why do I pounder upon these thoughts so often? And why always at a bar?

I guess the reason at a bar is well there is alcohol there and there is people watching. If you combine the two you have something that I am extremely good at doing. So natural when I do those things I start thinking about other people's what ifs. Why are in this place? Is it the same reason I am here or is their life in a downward spiral of doom that the only thing to make it better is some liquor in their system. I think the later is probably an over step but still I have a feeling it does happen at times.

Anyways so this night at the bar I have noticed a lot of drunk individuals some of which didn't even recognize that the are at the point of blasted, yet believe they are as normal as possible. Is that how people feel in real. In their own minds they feel that they are just like everyone else, yet in reality they are not even close to that. Or is it the fact they are so down that they drank so much that they can not accept their own reality? In real terms they are not happy with their self that the most cloak it by acting in a certain manner? Such as drinking so much just so they don't have to feel that they are odd or need it to fit in.

In all honesty I think the only people that really truly see the true person is someone who provides the booze to said person. If you think it about you have to act sober together a drink and how does one fake being sober by doing what comes natural to them. So the more drinks the more truth that flies right out. Like it had said before the best psychologist is the bartender.

Anyways that's my late night post or should I say semi late post...

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