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Here lately my posts have been about continuing and feeling down because of the challenges I am going through right now. Most of these challenges can be attributed to my own doing. At times it feels like I am falling to the ground its sometimes very hard to get up from the ground. The only thing I should feel that way. I should have the confidence to push myself up and move forward again knowing that it is a task that should be easy to me.

This came into light even more as I listed to NPR program called "Snap Judgement". The program has several people telling their poems and short stories and one of those short stories was simply inspirational and just shows that some people who may appear to be weak are some of the strongest people around and a lot of us can learn from them. The short story is called "Falling" and I linked the reading from snap judgement here.



This person has been able to get over so many obstacles that so many of us may have not been able to get over. There is one part where she talks about how she was taught literally how to fall because of her disability. The funny thing is that this falling is physical and yet mental. She had so many items that I think I would fall mentally so hard yet she moved on so easily even though she went through the falling in two different ways.

That just tells you that no mater what because you fall for the same problem so many times you can easily move on get up and move on. She has so much confidence to push on and do so much. 

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