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The past 2012 and on to the new 2013

Another year has left and a new year is not here. For the most part the year 2012 was one of the hardest years of my life, and it pretty much started on the get go. The first several months after that day was trying to get in a norm, and I fairly certain that's how my family felt too, but it was not the easiest. I jumped into a relationship knowing what I was doing at the time was not the best and figured I try to make myself happy. That ended up being the wrong choice and I was a little bit more miserable of how that turned out.

After that I stopped thinking about relationships and began to progress through "I don't care anymore" phase. I started saving up money and limit already limited party life because I wanted to move out and grow up a little more. I didn't have a plan or idea when that would happen, but knew that is what I wanted.

In August my family would go through yet another hard time, but this time I would lose someone instead of a close almost. When my grandfather passed on, I had no idea what to think. He was someone I could always look up to and when I started think about how I almost lost both my father and my grandfather in one year I knew it was time to make something out of my self like they had. I needed to become better.

After the rough August and began to look for a house of my own, a place were I could start my new progress of life. On October the dream became a reality and as I am typing this I am in my house, a house that I think my grandfather would like and luckily a house my Dad has been too several times now.

Another thing that helped me get through that rough month of August and September was the acquiring of new friends, friends that I would not trade for anything. A long side with the great friends from before I was able to accomplish another goal.

On January 14th I start academy for the Sheriffs department and start my career in law enforcement. I know that I have several people cheering me on and with my family helping I know I can accomplish this goal and then become what I want to be someone who can help others.

Here to a hard year and here to a new.

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