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5 years ago I decided to leave a really good job that I enjoyed and had fun at to go to another. I went to this other job so I could go to U of A and work on my Chemical Engineering degree. This job allowed me to go to school during the day and still work full time. I really had no idea what I was going into, just the idea that it was like a past job. I was truly excited for this job simply because it looked like my future was looking like it was getting better. When I first started I was a young and naive and thought I truly knew a lot. When I first started at this job I thought of it as just a temporary job and figured once I got my degree I would be set.

Here I am 5 years later, I am still working at the casino in the surveillance department and reflecting back at those several days I have spent there. How many lessons I have learned professional. How many heart breaks I have had to go through because of that job. How many nights I have stayed awaken because of the many issues that I have had to endure. How many people have seen arrive and leave. How many accomplishments I have succeed. How many times have had to look at my errors. The one "How many" I really enjoy is how many true friends I have gained because of that one job.

As I have been typing this I noticed that I have placed a lot of bad things down. This job as been harsh on so many scales even more so recently. It has not been an easy ride but I have to say I have had the chance to gain a lot and learn a lot that not many other people will ever have. As the recent items have occurred I really have learned some lessons that I might have to use in future job, the lesson that I can't trust very many people and I always have to be ready.

I am not entirely sure what is going to happen in the future but I do know I have to change some things at work dealing with items I have talked about. I do need this job until something else arrives so I need to make sure I am protect myself.

5 years have gone by in my life and I have learned a great deal and have truly learned that I will continue to learn. I have gained good friends, some who have gone and some that stand close. But the one lesson I have truly learned is all in all I stand alone and need to make sure I protect myself.


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