So I have always believed that my life was going to be set up a certain way. I knew some aspects would not be what the original plan told of, but I figured the core of the future would be the same. I thought maybe I would become a scientist or be engaged in a mentally challenging job, but that plan has changed. I knew that was going to occur. I believed that this would not be true for the core, but I have learned that the core of the future can change just as quick as the other parts.
I thought that my core of my future would be a house, wife, kids, a good job, and easy day to day. This image is seen in a lot of my friends lives, plus or minus some changes, and that always made me feel like I was falling behind. I always thought that one day I would succeed at obtaining that core dream, except I think I was never meant to receive that dream. One thing that I am fairly certain about is that I am supposed to be in a public service job, one in which I can help people. These types of jobs are not one to be day by day but much longer, but that does not bother me. Instead the anticipation and thoughts of what the job might bring invigorates me to obtain that type of job. This removes the day by day in one swift swipe.
In the last couple months friends close and afar have been getting married, getting a house and started their family. Some of them have been older, some younger, but the majority being my age. This would usually bring me down, but recently it has made me smile. I am not sure why my reaction is this way and why my attitude is so different, but I do have a theory. The theory is that I am comfortable in seeing that I may not have a family, but I might have the ability to see other families grow and be happy. That my career that I have chosen, and hope to get in, will protect these families, serve these families, and help these families grow. When I see what my future might do for the many, I am not sad of what I might lose.
The fact is I have never been good at dating, I don't think I am that good with kids, and when it comes to jobs I am not one to be locked down behind a desk. What I am good at is helping others and I enjoy doing it. Its not for the hero title, I can't stand that, but the fact that I am doing something I truly believe in.
I always pictured a certain image, but I have learned that the portrait that was in my mind needed to be cleaned and redrawn to the path that I have taken. This time I am going to stick to this path and see how the image becomes focused as I move forward.
If you paint in your mind a picture of bright and happy expectations, you put yourself into a condition conducive to your goal.~ Norman Vincent Peale
I thought that my core of my future would be a house, wife, kids, a good job, and easy day to day. This image is seen in a lot of my friends lives, plus or minus some changes, and that always made me feel like I was falling behind. I always thought that one day I would succeed at obtaining that core dream, except I think I was never meant to receive that dream. One thing that I am fairly certain about is that I am supposed to be in a public service job, one in which I can help people. These types of jobs are not one to be day by day but much longer, but that does not bother me. Instead the anticipation and thoughts of what the job might bring invigorates me to obtain that type of job. This removes the day by day in one swift swipe.
In the last couple months friends close and afar have been getting married, getting a house and started their family. Some of them have been older, some younger, but the majority being my age. This would usually bring me down, but recently it has made me smile. I am not sure why my reaction is this way and why my attitude is so different, but I do have a theory. The theory is that I am comfortable in seeing that I may not have a family, but I might have the ability to see other families grow and be happy. That my career that I have chosen, and hope to get in, will protect these families, serve these families, and help these families grow. When I see what my future might do for the many, I am not sad of what I might lose.
The fact is I have never been good at dating, I don't think I am that good with kids, and when it comes to jobs I am not one to be locked down behind a desk. What I am good at is helping others and I enjoy doing it. Its not for the hero title, I can't stand that, but the fact that I am doing something I truly believe in.
I always pictured a certain image, but I have learned that the portrait that was in my mind needed to be cleaned and redrawn to the path that I have taken. This time I am going to stick to this path and see how the image becomes focused as I move forward.
If you paint in your mind a picture of bright and happy expectations, you put yourself into a condition conducive to your goal.~ Norman Vincent Peale
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