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Staying single for a year, this statement sounds easy as many people have tried. In fact that is something I am going to do, I am going to take that and in the advice of not even trying. In fact I am going to try to be single for a year. I am not going to engage in any thing that can lead to that such, as kissing, holding hands, sexual intercourse, or things of that matter. For example those items listed in 40 days and 40 nights, with the extra that I have to be single that whole time and along with the 325 days added on to it. This may seem as daunting task, but I think the benefit of it will be great and help me out.

So many times have I been told “don’t try, let it come” I have tried, but failed. This time I want to be single I don’t want to be with anyone. I don’t want anything that comes with it as of right now, In order to find myself. I could pick a shorter time, but I don’t think that is the best for this, I think a year, a total year of reflection and discover would be best. Even more so that this is my final year of my education, for the time, so this may help me focus on my study better and enlighten me.

As I have seen before some crazy ideas have amazing results. Inventions of all sorts came from people who said what if. Will I am thinking to my self how many time I have heard from books, movies, songs, and people that how can you love some one or know you are in love if you don’t know yourself or love others. That is the main point to this task, no project / goal. In removing the key distraction, finding the “possible mate” or whatever you may call it I may find that thing I am looking for that piece I am missing to fully discover myself. A long with that I can explore new things through out my local world and further when I am not looking for “that” girl everywhere I look. I think this process will also help me to grow up more then my current point. I may be able to understand more things in my life and that from other when I take something away that I think I need. The second part is this blog that I am writing everyday I will enter how my day went, much like a regular blog, but I would think it would be slightly different… maybe not.

I think it will be very refreshing to me and I can’t wait to learn how to control my urges better, I know there well be temptation, but that is part of the learning, if that were not there then this project would not be that of what it is. This does not mean I cannot have fun, go out with friends, etc. In fact I need to keep doing that I need to have fun instead of staying in cave, will that’s my opinion. So at that starting Jan 1 of the year 2010 I will bring this project to life.

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